Help, I Need Somebody

I've not been keeping up with my blog all that well recently.  I also haven't written in my journal for over a month, and I'm really feeling it.  If I've learnt anything over the past few years, it's that I need to write for my well-being.  It's how I process my thoughts and work through situations.  It's how I clear my head.  I also enjoy it, and get a lot out of writing on here.  But it feels like a struggle this evening, and I find that quite frustrating.

 

I don't like feeling this tired or that I'm just 'getting through the week'.  I've found it hard to adjust to working full time again and could do with improving the balance between work and home, quiet time and socialising, resting and exercising.  Despite being an adult (apparently), I still need to get better at looking after myself.  Sometimes I feel like I'm on it and that I've got this whole life thing sussed.  And other times I almost wish I was back home and had my mum to cook my dinner and tell me to go to bed (that's not an invitation to boss me around mum!).  I feel a bit small and like I've lost some of my confidence (again).  It's not just children who need someone to reassure them that it's going to be ok.  As I've written about before, I don't want to rely on other people in order to feel good about myself.  But neither do I want to keep my thoughts to myself, nor only express them from behind the security of a screen.  We all need support and help from time to time.  It's just not that easy to ask for it.

 

 

Here are my photos from the past few weeks.  Hard to believe that I'm over half-way now!

 

 

Day 172: It may just look like an ordinary pile of letters waiting to be posted... but it represents 12 more children being sponsored, mosquito nets being bought and people who willingly give their time to support something they believe in;

Day 173: Finally sorted my photos from China...2 years on; Day 174: Minty bubbles in my belly; Day 175: New bowl.  Cos it's pretty; Day 176: Flamingo confetti!; Day 177: Because it's been a 'bowl of cereal and cookies for dinner' kind of day; Day 178: Beautiful new picture frames; Day 179: Post-work naps; Day 180: Spent my day off dress shopping

 

Day 181: Preparations are well underway for the (hen) weekend; Day 182: Just chillin with my ice cream; Day 183: Hen party!; Day 184: Crown making with my besties; Day 185: (large) Circle of friendship; Day 186: Wishing I could turn back time to relive the weekend; Day 187: Survived my first day in charge of the shop; Day 188: Painted panel love; Day 189: Love the light